041: Snow?

Nov. 30th, 2008 04:40 pm
livingmyths: (Crazy hair blue)
I saw snowflakes today! Not a lot, not enough to coat the ground, but snowflakes!

They feathered down out of the sky, floating and drifting on the breeze, dusting the trees here and there with just the tiniest bit of powdered white.

I watched until it was too dark to see anymore, but oh, was it beautiful while it lasted!
livingmyths: (Default)
I'm kind of crazy and... broken.

I don't always know what's real and what isn't.

I have to carry things with me all the time to feel safe. Stupid things. things I know can't do anything, but without them I get so panicked I can't function.

I wonder all the time about the things I know

Being here... so much of what I believe has been challenged and it's so hard. Even when it's good it hurts.

Am I responsible for my mother's death? I ran instead trying to help her. Am I a whore for the things I've done? I let people have sex with me to get things I needed for me or the little ones. Could I have saved more of the children? I watched so many of them die...

If so much of what I knew is lies, so much of what I based me on, then who am I?

Am I real? Am I even here or have I finally lost all hold on reality and created this crazy imaginary City in my head, while my body is locked up in some crazy ward?

livingmyths: (Happy)
Happiness is...

- having people who care about you
- not feeling like a damaged freak all the time
- working in a place that you love
- having a beautiful place to live
- feeling safe
- pretending to be in a fairy tale
- dancing
- kisses

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