Living Amid the Myths

I did everything the deities wanted. I hope they'll let us be for a little while.

Tony... doesn't remember me and that's really really hard and makes me very sad.

But the sun is shining and the birds are out and three deer were in my front yard this morning to remind me of how beautiful things are.

I usually go into the Library at least for a while, but today I think I'm just going to sit in the sun at the front of my house and watch the animals and read a book and have tea. That will make me feel better.

Happiness is...

- having people who care about you
- not feeling like a damaged freak all the time
- working in a place that you love
- having a beautiful place to live
- feeling safe
- pretending to be in a fairy tale
- dancing
- kisses

Tony's gone and Luke is gone and Leia and Mr. Winchester and... It's just...

It's not fair. Finally the ancestors let me have friends and then they take them away?

I know life isn't fair and I know things happen and there's nothing you can do and you need to just stop whining and get over them, but...

This hurts.

I never had friends before and maybe now I don't want any anymore if this is what is going to happen.

I can't go back to the beautiful house Tony and my other friends made for me. Not now.

Maybe later I'll be able to look at it and remember good things, but right now it would just be too painful.

Are any of my friends still here?