livingmyths: (Beautiful pensive side)
livingmyths ([personal profile] livingmyths) wrote2009-05-04 06:24 pm

087: Better

It's good to be back at work. I think the Library missed me. I felt like it sort of followed me around all day, which I know sounds silly, but everytime I turned around something it knew I would like was right there.

I'm up here on the roof now, enjoying the air and the freedom and the not being afraid.

Everything seems so much more clear. It's kind of interesting.

Thomas...? I'm so sorry. I know I said I wouldn't with anyone else so we could see what happened, but I thought it was - by the time I realized... I... it was too late. I didn't mean to.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
I imagine that you confuse him sometimes as well, but then everyone's confusing at different times. It's whether or not you're both willing to make the effort to work past that. To learn enough about each other that the confusion goes away.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know. I guess we'll see.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:43 am (UTC)(link)
Do let me know if there's anything I can do for you. I want you to know I'm here for you.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know if there is. I don't know what to do myself.

Romana... he... he talked about me as if, well, as if he'd think about me being his girlfriend. Nobody ever thought of me like that before. Not ever. Even if he changes his mind, that's still... unbelieveable.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
Rain, you're worthy of love, and if you can find that with Thomas...

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:59 am (UTC)(link)
Love? I... no... I don't think - I don't think that's what he meant.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:02 am (UTC)(link)
I think he cares for you a great deal, Rain. Maybe in time it could be more?

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:04 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know.

That's... really really scary to think about.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
It is, isn't it?

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. I...

I don't think it will - anyone ever really would -

Not with me.

Especially not someone like him.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
Why not with someone like him? What is it about him that makes you think you're not for him?

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
He's... wonderful. Handsome and smart and kind and just... everything.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
And you're kind, generous, and honest.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
And broken and a little crazy.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
Nobody's perfect. He's possessed by a demon.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:35 am (UTC)(link)
He's not a monster. He's good.

He just... he forgets and needs people to remind him.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
As do you sometimes. You're good, too.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. Yes, I am.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you can finally see that, Rain. It was always there.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
I guess. Yes.

I always try very hard to be good.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
You are.

Let me know if you have any problems, or need to talk. We could always go out for another picnic, alright?

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
Okay. I'd like that.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
You know where I'll be, then.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
With Tony?

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
Or at the TARDIS, or at City Solutions.

...but mostly with Tony.