livingmyths: (Beautiful pensive side)
livingmyths ([personal profile] livingmyths) wrote2009-05-04 06:24 pm

087: Better

It's good to be back at work. I think the Library missed me. I felt like it sort of followed me around all day, which I know sounds silly, but everytime I turned around something it knew I would like was right there.

I'm up here on the roof now, enjoying the air and the freedom and the not being afraid.

Everything seems so much more clear. It's kind of interesting.

Thomas...? I'm so sorry. I know I said I wouldn't with anyone else so we could see what happened, but I thought it was - by the time I realized... I... it was too late. I didn't mean to.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
It is, isn't it?

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. I...

I don't think it will - anyone ever really would -

Not with me.

Especially not someone like him.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
Why not with someone like him? What is it about him that makes you think you're not for him?

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
He's... wonderful. Handsome and smart and kind and just... everything.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
And you're kind, generous, and honest.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
And broken and a little crazy.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
Nobody's perfect. He's possessed by a demon.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:35 am (UTC)(link)
He's not a monster. He's good.

He just... he forgets and needs people to remind him.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
As do you sometimes. You're good, too.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. Yes, I am.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you can finally see that, Rain. It was always there.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
I guess. Yes.

I always try very hard to be good.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
You are.

Let me know if you have any problems, or need to talk. We could always go out for another picnic, alright?

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
Okay. I'd like that.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
You know where I'll be, then.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
With Tony?

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
Or at the TARDIS, or at City Solutions.

...but mostly with Tony.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
Good.

You make him happy.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad. He's made me quite happy, too. More than I thought I'd be.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad for you.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
I hope I can be glad for you, too, Rain.

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
I... I don't know.

He says it's not fair to me, so... Maybe not.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
What isn't fair to you?

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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
That he wants me just to be with him, but he'd have to have sex with other people so he didn't hurt me.

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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
Does that...is that a problem for you?