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livingmyths ([personal profile] livingmyths) wrote2008-08-18 11:32 am
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015: Strange Dreams

What happened to the weekend?

I... I think perhaps I was sick. I can't really remember anything after Friday night except some very odd dreams. And even they are pretty fuzzy and far-away.

Maybe I just slept in my corner in the library all weekend somehow? I still feel a little off-balance and uncertain of myself.

Mr. Stark - I mean, Tony - I am sorry I did not show up for my job this weekend. I'm terribly sorry and I'll work twice as hard this week to make up for it.

Was there anything else I failed to do for anyone? Please let me know and I'll try and fix it.


[ooc: Rain doesn't remember being cursed. Her brain, broken though it is, is kind enough to keep that from her.]
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[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 04:06 pm (UTC)(link)
It's okay, you might have been cursed and forgotten it.

I have some good news though.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 04:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Another curse? And I don't remember it?

Oooh! What good news?

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 04:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Sometimes it happens.

I met someone during the curse, someone who had abilities like yours. She wrote down some things she can do and some exercises she did to learn to control her abilities.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 04:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Really?

Someone like me?

Do you think maybe they'd help me be not so... broken?

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 05:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, someone a lot like you.

I think they were here just for the curse, which is why I asked them to write down some notes.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow.

That was really nice of you. To think of me like that.

I don't think I can ever repay you for all the things you do for me.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 05:53 pm (UTC)(link)
That's what friends are for, Rain. I'm glad to be of help.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 05:55 pm (UTC)(link)
It doesn't seem right not to be able to do something for you, though.

Not the way I'm used to things working, you know?

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 07:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I keep telling you, that your friendship makes me happy.

Well, if you think of something just let me know, okay?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 07:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Most guys know just what they'd like as a favor from a girl.

And... and I don't mind if you want that.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 07:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Rain, if I were going to ask that of you it would be because you're a beautiful, fun girl. Not because I wanted you to pay me back for something.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 07:52 pm (UTC)(link)
...

Really?

It's - on the streets, usually if somebody does something for you - all these favors - they expect...

I'm kind of... lost, but - okay. If you ever do because I'm, I'm beautiful and fun you just have to ask.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 08:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I know what sort of favors they expect. Did I ever tell you I was homeless for a while?

I'll remember that, Rain.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 08:27 pm (UTC)(link)
No you didn't. You were... like me?

I mean, not broken like me, but living on the streets?


Okay. I... I wouldn't mind. I know you'd be nice to me.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 08:35 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't think you're broken, Rain. But I was very, very broken. All I cared about was drinking and getting drunk enough to forget... everything.

Yes, I would be. But I think you're too good for me. Besides, you do realize that I'm twice your age, don't you? I'm an old man.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Something terrible must have happened to make you be like that. I wish I could have been there to help.


*rueful laughter*

I think you have that backwards. I'm nowhere near good enough. And I've... done things... with men a lot older. Only way to make sure the little kids get space in a shelter sometimes. And if they're sick it's dangerous for them to sleep on the streets

But it's okay. I just felt like I should offer, you know? In case that's what you wanted and were being polite.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
I let it happen to me, really. And I wish you could have been too, but I had some good friends that helped me through it.

Anyone who does what it takes to make sure that little kids gets space in shelters is a very good person, Rain.

Thank you, but as I said, if I wanted it it would be because you're a very attractive young woman.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you had good friends then. And... somebody has to watch out for the little kids when they don't have anyone else. It's scary and dangerous out there alone.

Okay. Thanks.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-19 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
I've heard of someone else that watches out for children like that.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-19 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
I believe you called her the Blue Lady?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-19 04:15 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. Oh yes. If you're in trouble and you know her true name you can call on her and she'll save you.

Even sometimes if you don't know it, she'll help you if she can.

She watches out for all the street children.

Or so they say on the streets. The adults say it's just something the kids make up, so... I don't know. But I want her to be real. I want her to be real so much.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-19 04:38 pm (UTC)(link)
It sounds to me like you and the Blue Lady have a lot in common.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-19 07:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh no, she's magical and special and she can really save people. All the kids pray to the Blue Lady.

I just... do small things when I can.

I can hear when store people are looking the other way so it's - well so it's safe to steal food or stuff that kids need. I know it's wrong, but sometimes I didn't know another way.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
Well, you have exceptional abilities, you're special, and I bet those little kids think you saved them. Maybe you're the Blue Lady's agent.

Small things can sometimes make a big difference.

I think it's understandable when you don't know any other way.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
You're gonna make me cry again.

I... I made sure they didn't know. I didn't want them thinking it was a good thing to do, but...

You think maybe she would think so?

You think maybe those things don't make me a bad person?

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.

I think the Blue Lady would definitely think so.

I don't think they do, Rain. You used your abilities selflessly to help other people, to help children, and you did by affecting as few people as possible. I think that makes you a very good person.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
You did, kind of. But without exactly meaning to.

Because, sometimes, for me to really hear something like that about me... it makes me feel all funny inside - good and sad and everything all mixed up at the same time. And I think you want me to think about myself that way.

I hope she would. I hope...

I just hope.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-21 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
I do want you to think about yourself that way. But I don't want to tell you those things so much you feel uncomfortable or don't like it.

Hoping is good.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-21 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes I have to cry before things change.

It hurts, though.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-21 09:09 am (UTC)(link)
A lot of time change does hurt.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-22 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
Despair feels like nothing though, and that's even worse.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-22 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
Despair hurts, too, but hope... It always seems to be followed by despair - up and down until I feel sick and panicky.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-22 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
Who says it's not despair that's followed by hope?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-22 12:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Because eventually there is no more hope and you feel like a stupid fool.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-23 09:15 am (UTC)(link)
There's always hope, Rain.
Edited 2008-08-23 09:15 (UTC)

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-23 01:04 pm (UTC)(link)
I try to believe that. It's easier to hope for other people than for me.

[identity profile] ohmykethe.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Wouldn't be stranger than some of the shit going 'round. I could see sleeping it through, yeah.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 05:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Was it that bad a curse?

[identity profile] ohmykethe.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 05:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Dunno, I wasn't hit. Didn't exactly seem like a walk through Lighthill in the afternoon, though.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
A walk through Lighthill? What's that?

[identity profile] ohmykethe.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 05:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I fucking gotta stop... Rich neighborhood. Walking through there in the day's easy as breathing, if'n you can get in all in the first place.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 06:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Not like the other streets where you live when you've got nowhere to go.

Those... yeah, it's like a war.

[identity profile] ohmykethe.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Naw. Wars, see, they got endings, y'know? Beginnings, too. Lower city shit's just all full of middles.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-18 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Do they? To me they just seem like they've always been and always will be.
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