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livingmyths ([personal profile] livingmyths) wrote2008-08-18 11:32 am
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015: Strange Dreams

What happened to the weekend?

I... I think perhaps I was sick. I can't really remember anything after Friday night except some very odd dreams. And even they are pretty fuzzy and far-away.

Maybe I just slept in my corner in the library all weekend somehow? I still feel a little off-balance and uncertain of myself.

Mr. Stark - I mean, Tony - I am sorry I did not show up for my job this weekend. I'm terribly sorry and I'll work twice as hard this week to make up for it.

Was there anything else I failed to do for anyone? Please let me know and I'll try and fix it.


[ooc: Rain doesn't remember being cursed. Her brain, broken though it is, is kind enough to keep that from her.]
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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-19 07:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh no, she's magical and special and she can really save people. All the kids pray to the Blue Lady.

I just... do small things when I can.

I can hear when store people are looking the other way so it's - well so it's safe to steal food or stuff that kids need. I know it's wrong, but sometimes I didn't know another way.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
Well, you have exceptional abilities, you're special, and I bet those little kids think you saved them. Maybe you're the Blue Lady's agent.

Small things can sometimes make a big difference.

I think it's understandable when you don't know any other way.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
You're gonna make me cry again.

I... I made sure they didn't know. I didn't want them thinking it was a good thing to do, but...

You think maybe she would think so?

You think maybe those things don't make me a bad person?

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.

I think the Blue Lady would definitely think so.

I don't think they do, Rain. You used your abilities selflessly to help other people, to help children, and you did by affecting as few people as possible. I think that makes you a very good person.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
You did, kind of. But without exactly meaning to.

Because, sometimes, for me to really hear something like that about me... it makes me feel all funny inside - good and sad and everything all mixed up at the same time. And I think you want me to think about myself that way.

I hope she would. I hope...

I just hope.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-21 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
I do want you to think about yourself that way. But I don't want to tell you those things so much you feel uncomfortable or don't like it.

Hoping is good.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-21 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes I have to cry before things change.

It hurts, though.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-21 09:09 am (UTC)(link)
A lot of time change does hurt.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-22 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
Despair feels like nothing though, and that's even worse.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-22 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
Despair hurts, too, but hope... It always seems to be followed by despair - up and down until I feel sick and panicky.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-22 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
Who says it's not despair that's followed by hope?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-22 12:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Because eventually there is no more hope and you feel like a stupid fool.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2008-08-23 09:15 am (UTC)(link)
There's always hope, Rain.
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[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2008-08-23 01:04 pm (UTC)(link)
I try to believe that. It's easier to hope for other people than for me.
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