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livingmyths ([personal profile] livingmyths) wrote2009-05-27 09:46 am
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094: In the Woods

If anyone's looking for me, I'm going to be staying out in the woods for a while.

I've taken some time off from the Library and I just... I'm just going to go out and stay by the river for a bit.

Don't worry, I have my backpack with all my things and I have my Network Device so you can reach me. And if anyone wants to come visit I can tell you where I am.
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[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 06:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Why aren't you happy with who you are?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 07:05 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm...

I'm too young. Inside, I mean. Not grown-up like I should be.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I'd say you're very grown-up, Rain. You've spent most of your life caring for others, caring for yourself, that's a very grown-up thing to do.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 07:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I probbaly just can't say it right. The way it feels inside.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 10:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Ahhh, I think you may mean is that you have a lack of experience? You're relating to people in new ways and perhaps you don't know how?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
I watch people together - men and women - and I... I'm not like those women. I'm... I'm like a little girl.

I don't even understand how to be like them.

How can anyone... I can't be like that.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
How, so Rain?

Relationships are different for everyone, you have to try to learn. I did.

Struggling Rain struggles

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 10:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know.

I'm... my head's like a child's. I don't, maybe that's why...

People, people don't want to have a serious grown-up relationship with a child.

And I want...

It doesn't matter.

Poor, Rain...

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
You can learn, Rain, everyone can, it just takes time. When you were younger, parts of your mind just... stopped. They had to in order to protect you.

And it does matter. You're upset and that matters a great deal to me.

Frustrated to tears Rain

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
It's stupid. I know it is. But I want to be normal. I want to be like everyone else.

I want... I want someone to care about just me.

See... and now I'm all selfish! I hate that!

Oh, 'Mana, I just have to be away for now! I have to be Not Me for a while till I can be me again.

*sobs* Romana didn't mean to make her cry.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I... I understand, I think, a little. And there's nothing wrong with any of that.

But take your time, come back when you're ready. We'll be here for you when you need us.

*sniffles*

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Okay, 'Mana. And I'll be right here if anyone needs me. I'm not hiding where no one can find me, promise.

*sniffles moar*

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll come out for a picnic some afternoon and you can tell me some more stories. Would you like that?

[ooc: And we can assume that happened, if you like.]

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
If you'd like to, 'Mana. You can always come see me.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I will then, in a few days so you can settle a bit.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll probably only be here for a few days.

I don't want to stay away from the Library for too long.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
The I'll come out tomorrow, then. Some fresh air would do me good.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Just let me know and I'll tell you where to find me.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
You too, 'Mana. I'm sorry I'm so mixed up.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't be sorry, Rain, it may take time, but everything will sort out.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I hope so, 'Mana. I don't like this.

I don't like feeling like I'm - like because I'm wrong in my head I can never have things I want.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Have faith and get some rest. Look at the sky and let yourself relax some.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-27 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm going to splash in the river. Maybe I'll be River for a while and not Rain.

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