livingmyths: (Beautiful pensive side)
livingmyths ([personal profile] livingmyths) wrote2009-05-04 06:24 pm

087: Better

It's good to be back at work. I think the Library missed me. I felt like it sort of followed me around all day, which I know sounds silly, but everytime I turned around something it knew I would like was right there.

I'm up here on the roof now, enjoying the air and the freedom and the not being afraid.

Everything seems so much more clear. It's kind of interesting.

Thomas...? I'm so sorry. I know I said I wouldn't with anyone else so we could see what happened, but I thought it was - by the time I realized... I... it was too late. I didn't mean to.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you're feeling better!


I bet whatever it is Thomas won't be mad at you.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I told him I wouldn't have sex with anyone else and I didn't mean to. I though it was him and by the time I knew it wasn't, well... it was too late.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh...well--um. That's not really my business, I'm sorry. If you thought it was him then maybe he'll understand. I didn't know you two were involved that way.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
We... It's complicated.

Maybe we are and maybe we aren't.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh---well again it's not really my business. I'm sorry.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
It's okay.

I... people say I have problems with boundaries sometimes. I don't know what things people don't usually share.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:27 pm (UTC)(link)
That's okay...I just didn't know I guess, that's all. It's fine.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Didn't know what?

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Nothing really. Anyway, you're feeling better then in your head?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. Romana helped me fix things.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
That's really good to hear. Do you think you'll be trying to learn to control your abilities better or do you just not want to deal with that yet?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:42 pm (UTC)(link)
That's... that's what we were doing when this all happened. It kind of... all my walls broke and all the bad things got out.

But I put them back together better and I already am better with everything.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
I know, I got that, that's why I was hesitant to ask about it.

I'm glad that you're better and are better with it. Sometimes special abilities aren't all bad.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh gosh, you can ask me anything and I'll tell you. Like I said, I'm not so good with boundaries.

Unless I've told someone I won't share something. I don't break promises. Which is why I'm so upset about, well.. things.

Yes. My father... he lied to me about lots and lots of things. To hurt me and scare me and... everything.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-04 11:56 pm (UTC)(link)
With Thomas you mean? Sometimes promises get broken even when you don't mean to and sometimes they make a friendship or whatever stronger.

That was really wrong of him to do. In some ways that's common in my world, parents find out their kid is a mutant and they tell them all sorts of lies and bad things. It's not fair that it happens.

He sees that conversation above but is trying hard not to say anything!!

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you were able to go back to the library.

She'll tell him about it if he asks! *grin*

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:07 am (UTC)(link)
me too! I love it here.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:09 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. Well... we'll see.

Yeah. I always knew he hated me, but I never could see that maybe that meant he lied to me.

Noooo way.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:09 am (UTC)(link)
I know you do.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sure it'll be okay and stuff.

It's hard to believe that someone you love can lie to you with malicious intents.

Re: Noooo way.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
I like not being so scared all the time.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:17 am (UTC)(link)
Can you tell a noticeable difference?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:18 am (UTC)(link)
I hope so.

Yes. I don't understand why people lie anyway.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
In the being scared? Not from before really, but from during yes, of course.

I can hear better or just not listen better too.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
You remember more now too, don't you? Things from your past.

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