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livingmyths ([personal profile] livingmyths) wrote2009-05-04 06:24 pm
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087: Better

It's good to be back at work. I think the Library missed me. I felt like it sort of followed me around all day, which I know sounds silly, but everytime I turned around something it knew I would like was right there.

I'm up here on the roof now, enjoying the air and the freedom and the not being afraid.

Everything seems so much more clear. It's kind of interesting.

Thomas...? I'm so sorry. I know I said I wouldn't with anyone else so we could see what happened, but I thought it was - by the time I realized... I... it was too late. I didn't mean to.

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[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes people lie to protect their friends and sometimes they do it just to be mean to others.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
Yes.

Hard things.

[identity profile] morethanasuit.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
If you ever need to talk about anything or even just get away from things you let me know, okay?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
I guess. I don't do it, though.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:27 am (UTC)(link)
How would I get away from things that I carry with me everywhere.

Talking, though... I might sometime.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
That's probably a good thing, it's better to be honest with people. Sometimes even when you lie to protect people it turns out badly.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
I think so. It hurts to be lied to.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
I'm very happy to hear you're feeling better, Rain. Do you mean your mind and memories are more clear?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
Yes and my hearing and Not Listening.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
It really does most of the time.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
Which is why I don't. I don't want to hurt people.

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
I'm relieved you were able to salvage something out of that mess.

What's wrong with Thomas?

And Rain overshares as usual

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:01 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. Thank you.

I... I told him I wouldn't have sex with anyone but him so we could see what happened, but then, well... I thought it was him, but it wasn't and by the time I knew... there was nothing I could do.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
I wish I was more like you in some ways, there are people I'd want to hurt.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
Why?

Romana, oddly enough, is getting used to this

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:07 am (UTC)(link)
I should be thanking you, Rain. You helped me learn some things about myself I may not have learned had I not known you.

I...hmmm. What do you mean you thought it was him, were you cursed?

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:08 am (UTC)(link)
I guess because...I hate them.

Well, it is typical Rain

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
Really? Like what?

No. He was.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
Oh.

Like my dad hated me?

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
No, not like that at all. I hate Mojo because he does horrible things to people, I hate the Marauders because they massacred friends and people I knew, I hate Ogun because he made me into something I never wanted to be, I hate Belasco for what he did to my friend, and a whole number of other things. I hate them because they hurt people I love.

[Private to Rain//Unhackable]

[identity profile] lady-wandering.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
That I'm not nearly as good as I think I am sometimes. That I've come to care for certain people here much more that I though I would.

He...was someone in his body? Is that what happened?

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
I guess I understand that.

That's what my dad thought about me, so I guess that makes sense. Even if he was wrong.

Re: [Private to Rain//Unhackable]

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:16 am (UTC)(link)
Like Tony, I hope.

Yes. He was another him. A not so nice him.

[identity profile] phasedcat.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:16 am (UTC)(link)
He thought you'd hurt someone he'd loved? But you were just a kid! That doesn't make sense. Those people that I hate, I saw them kill or try to kill my friends or me. I fought them to protect people, at least I have reason. Your dad didn't.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
I think something went wrong in his head when my mother died.

And it hurt so much it had to be somebody's fault and I was the only one there was.
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