livingmyths: (Thoughtful grey)
livingmyths ([personal profile] livingmyths) wrote2009-01-17 01:00 pm

059: Thoughtful

I'm glad I did not turn into a boy yesterday. I don't think I would have liked it very much at all. I was torn between laughing and feeling so sorry for people on the Network yesterday. I hope everyone is back to themselves and feeling better.

I know I'm happy. I have two wonderful jobs and wonderful friends and a wonderful housemate and the most ever wonderful home I could ever imagine. I've been here almost eight months and they've been the best eight months that I think I've had since my mother... well, since then.

If I was in a myth or a legend, there would have been a prophecy. You know, like 'In the middle of her 22nd year the chosen one will live in a place of true myths, inside a hill, a place where gods still walk the streets, and there she will...' whatever great thing it is the chosen one is supposed to accomplish.

But I don't think I have much to accomplish.

Though there are some questions I would like to have answers to.

[identity profile] notapreacher.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
...I used to do it a lot more than I do now.

It's not like I can control it anyway.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I suppose not.

I haven't done so well with controlling mine either. Even though I really should.

[identity profile] notapreacher.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Rain, I don't think anyone can.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:05 pm (UTC)(link)
But... what if it's not good and you can't ever ever tell anyone?

[identity profile] notapreacher.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:07 pm (UTC)(link)
You mean if your heart's not good? I think if that's the case, you probably don't care enough to want or need to tell anyone. I don't know.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:11 pm (UTC)(link)
No, not my heart.

My... what it wants. It can't have it. And I shouldn't even ever think about it.

[identity profile] notapreacher.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Sounds like you just told someone.

Or at least just hinted about it.

[identity profile] notapreacher.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Here's the deal. You're a good person, so no matter what your heart wants -- even if you think it's bad -- it probably isn't. Sometimes just confiding it makes things better. You know that expression getting it off your chest? That's what it means. So if you ever want to confide in someone, I can promise it'll stay with me and never go anywhere else. And if you don't? Guess what? We'll still be friends, no matter what.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:26 pm (UTC)(link)
I think you're really really wonderful and I'm so happy we met.

And I'm so glad you're my friend.

My heart... it really really likes someone who's totally in love with someone else. So I've told it that it just has to be happy with other things.

[identity profile] notapreacher.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Hearts learn over time. They do.

And I'm so glad you're my friend, too.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
You're really special to me, too.

If there's anything you ever need...

[identity profile] notapreacher.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
I know who to ask. Thanks.

[identity profile] livingmyths.livejournal.com 2009-01-17 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
You too, Gren Gren Gren.